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Question number one for today

Five years ago was my last BJJ for those of you who don't know what that means Brazilian Jiu Jitsu competition

I won my first two matches, but lost the third to a much better grappler

However, the minute my first match started I wanted the comp to be over and I just wanted to go home

I mentally checked out and spent the rest of the competition thinking about how shit it was and if I really wanted to be there

So when I was beaten I was more relieved than I was disappointed. I have not competed since because of the memory of this last comp and not wanted to feel that again or put myself in that situation

Cut to five years later. I'm a police officer and I'm at a pre-selection for the dive unit

This consisted of a beep test, which I wish I knew what that was but I don't an obstacle course run and a dummy drag before a 1k swim in the pool

I passed everything up to the 1k and when it's time to start swimming the negative self-tart talk starts again

I tell myself this sucks. I don't want to be here etc

Ultimately what happens is I can't get into a good rhythm

My turns are sloppy. I cramp up and I don't make the time despite making the time in training

I was in my head and talked myself out of this opportunity

My question is when you get into these negative feedback cycles and everything seems to be snowballing

How do you bring it back to achieving the goal you have set out?

Thanks for the podcast big fan PS

Can you chat to your courier to lower the prices on international shipping? I can't justify 50 bucks

for postage to Australia for a rashi, which I'm assuming means rash guard

I actually have nothing to do. I'll start at the bottom of this one

I have nothing to do with the shipping rates. They are set by basically everybody other than me and the system that I use

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