Hello and welcome to the Powerful Women podcast. Today is my first ever private episode on this channel. And I actually have my husband along with me. You want to say hi, Grant?

How's going, everybody? So if you're listening to this, because it's a private episode, that means you pretty much know that this is a very delicate and hard episode for me to put out even though you may not know exactly what all I'm

going to be speaking about and I actually recorded this what like four or five days ago myself

you did and kind of got the not so much clearance that maybe I said a little too much.

Yeah, so she was doing the podcast by herself, did a wonderful job with it.

Randa's, one of her many gifts is that she's very open and vulnerable.

And I think on that particular podcast, she was a little too open and certain sensitive subjects.

We're going to kind of covers. We're going to gonna try to keep it so tell you what's going on but kind of keep a little

more vague and we'll get into some reasons why that might be when we kind of hit those

subjects that's right and man I may be like kind of emotional through this episode and

I was telling Grant right before we started this that I really have no there's nothing

I'm trying to gain from this podcast. I'm not trying to win somebody over. I'm not trying to make

someone think differently about me or somebody else. I'm not trying to hurt anybody. I'm not trying to

play myself up. But I really feel called from God to kind of share a lot more.

And, you know, I feel like, for instance, in life, we're told, like, that God does things for

you versus to you in terms of like hard things.

And let me just start off by saying, I live such a beautiful life, a more beautiful life

in so many ways than I could have ever, ever, ever dreamed of.

But that doesn't mean that there aren't hard things that happen, right?

And anyone who's a Christian knows that you know being a Christian is not

just about prosperity and so there are hardships and there are different seasons and

there's things like the spiritual wall and then there's even times you come to a

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