Hi friends this week the title is exactly what we're talking about when feeling numb starts to hurt and when the numbness starts to become painful this is something I'm going through right now so So last week I talked about nothing in life resonating.

Now I want to talk about the numbness.

And I'm going to talk about some things that I've realized over the past week, because y'all

know I'm on like a little like Leo Tor. I flew New York I booked the one way and I'm just like bouncing around at different hotels and just figuring life out figuring myself out recently I kind of realized what causes the numbness to turn to pain and when I say the numbness of life

what I mean is all spark and enjoyment kind of go away

nothing feels good nothing's, it's just a very numb, like there's no

anything and we all know that's like a typical reaction that your body and your brain have when you're under too much stress or you feel too many things that are overwhelming to like everything going on in you.

Your body will numb out when there's too much going on and while you're going through certain things it does

help it feels better sometimes to feel nothing than the extreme pain that you're in but

living with that numbness when it hasn't kicked off is a bitch because the way I feel

sometimes is like the numbness is here so any happy positive emotion is like up you

can't feel it and also with the numbness it saves you from going down. Like there's no bad feelings, it's just numb. It takes the excitement out of life. It takes the joy out of life. You don't want to do anything. You don't care about nothing. Things you used to love you don't love anymore. They don't bring you enjoyment. You don't give a flying fuck about anything and like I said that can save you at

certain times but what I've been going through is the numbness and feeling numb has started to hurt. So where I talk

about the baseline of numbness it's like I don't feel any positive emotions

but it's kind of like the floor fell out and I can

access the bad I can access the pain but I cannot experience anything above the

numb so it's numb or pain. And that is a bitch because there's no like rebound. There's no happy moment. There's no like up. It's just up enough to be numb and neutral or down.

There's no up.

And living with that and navigating that

has been very, very hard and very, very difficult.

And it's one of the hardest things I've like kind of faced because you have to live your life

When things are numb shearily based off of willpower there is no more

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