Hello everybody and welcome to Humble and Hungry. I'm your friend Natalie Pouche. I apologize. I'm back on the voice recorder. This is the last week of this. I promise, but I just wanted to sort of catch you guys up from where we were last week.

So I was camping, off-grid, and I was peeing on sticks in the woods, pregnancy, six, and I had taken a few up to the trip.

I was probably, it was probably like a day, eight and nine, eight, nine, ten, which is a little bit early to be testing if you're pregnant.

But some people get faint lines and so I thought, okay, I can just test, and I didn't, and it was negative.

And I kept testing negative, kept testing negative, which is also probably why I was sort of in a weird space when I was up there.

Just emotionally, I was all over the place, but kept testing negative and then got home and on Wednesday, which was the 14th day, I had tested, and then it was negative again.

And I ended up going on to Patreon and sort of just did this really long, not long, but like just a very vulnerable Patreon.

And thank you guys if you've listened to it. Just so much love over there. Thank you.

And the reason why I did it on Patreon immediately was because some family members didn't even know.

And it just, it's like a safe space for me. It's not like I'm, you know, this, this show is, you know, some people listen to it.

My family, some close friends listen to it, but not many.

And so actually, I don't know who who listens. Some people say they don't, but I think they do.

But I just wanted to be respectful and tell everybody in my close circle first before, you know, sharing it on the show so publicly.

And I know who's on my Patreon. And so it's, that's like telling family at this point.

Anyways, I was like bawling my eyes out and crying like a baby, but, but I appreciate you guys showing me so much love and support through this whole thing.

I didn't know, I think there is a why I was crying so hard and why it hit me was because I finally for the first time was sort of saying it out loud that it was negative and that it didn't take.

I think I was so hopeful this first round. I don't know why I was so hopeful. I just thought like, of course it's going to take like this is it. This is all my body needed was just like a little, you know, a little kickstarter to just get it in there. And I just thought, I don't know, I was, I was being incredibly naively optimistic.

And so, yeah, I think just, you know, saying it out loud was really hard. And it just again, it's such an emotional roller coaster because every day you're just thinking like, is this happening?

Is it not happening? Do I feel something? Do I not? You're thinking, okay, the baby would be doing, you know, in May and, you know, you just start prepping and you're like, okay, could it be twins?

You're just in constant like overdrive all the time of just thinking that that's the emotional part that's really draining.

And again, I've been doing this for two years. So every month for two years, I'm like, could it be? Could it be? Could it not be? I don't know.

And that part is just exhausting. And, you know, I did mention on the show that like, I have friends that have done multiple rounds of IUI and IVF and, you know, looking into Sarah, you see, and all that.

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