Okay, the title being what it is and me starting this off giggling in a good mood.

Weird.

But hi, friends.

I want to talk about perfectionism and how I think it's a brain defect.

Because all the videos I've watched and all the different people I've seen talk about perfectionism,

it kind of goes into like overthinking and anxiety and shit like that. I want to talk about perfectionism. It kind of goes into like overthinking and anxiety and

shit like that. I want to talk about how my brain is and talk about perfectionism from the

lens that I experience it because it's not something that I've ever lived without. It's not

something I can turn off. And since I can remember, since I was a little kid, I always knew my brain was a little different. It was a little off. Like, I didn't see things the way

other people did. And I never really appreciated things how they were. I was constantly changing

them. And y'all know I talk about it all the time. I'm a whole different person every

two, three months, whole different, like physical, mental, everything. My brain automatically,

without trying, spots and just knows how anything can be improved. Any small thing that can be

improved or changed or tweaked, my brain just

does it. It spots it and it knows it. It's not that I'm trying to think about it. It's not that

I'm unhappy with things and I'm constantly nitpicking things to see how they can be better. And this

goes with everything. The way I talk, the way I walk,

the way other people are, the way other people look, the way I dress, the way that houses are built,

the way that gold looks, certain shades of gold, the way that architecture is, the way that social

media is, the way that videos look, the way that my set is, if I look a little pale,

it's because I was sick the past couple days, but the little light behind me, I didn't have it

on in my last episode, pissed me off. But the whole thing with perfectionism and my brain,

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