Prior to this relationship you struggled with self-love too for sure self acceptance

I never I've never said this is so tough sometimes like using words like my girlfriend before a lot of was my first time dating a white girl

I never dated a white girl. It's my first time. I was like, you know what?

I'm not there's not not gonna put any fucking color on love. I'm gonna go ahead and do this and

There was just a disconnect there was just a whole bunch and which that person couldn't control but I also

felt like I went into that when trying to be a true version of myself and that's why

Some of those things came out. But the true version of yourself with that your ex who was a white girl

Didn't work. I don't think that I could have ever gotten to the maximum degree of my truth

Mm-hmm even though you are in relationships. You don't always feel seen in relationships. You be like damn. I think we're just doing this

Hi there lovers and friends happy Thanksgiving

Something I should have said to you last week, but because we missed an episode

I didn't get a chance to tell you that and I want to tell you from the bottom of my heart from my family to yours

I truly hope that you got rest that you had gratitude and if that included a great meal that that happened for you as well

If that was a day of rebellion for you because of what the day stands for

I hope that you had a lovely rebellious day

Now we missed last week

Unexpectedly and I would love to blame on the fact that it took us four days to travel back from Columbia

to Los Angeles because of connecting flights and weather issues etc

But the real truth is I actually could have still

salvaged it and finished the episode

Had I not gotten

Extremely high the day that we got home. I find that holidays are a great opportunity for heavy discussions

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