Cocaine Numbed The Pain Of Narcissistic Abuse

Trauma & Narcissism Redefined

Caroline Strawson

Narcissisticabuse, Health & Fitness, Narcissist, Self-improvement, Education, Recovery, Mental Health, Trauma

4.8 • 701 Ratings

🗓️ 22 April 2025

⏱️ 61 minutes

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Summary

In today’s episode, I interview Mandy Metters, a recovered cocaine addict. You’ll hear her story of resilience, strength and shame that because of her abuse, she turned to drugs to numb out the pain of feeling worthless. She grew up with a narcissistic, alcoholic father and was diagnosed with bi polar. Or was this all because of trauma? Mandy’s courage and resilience shine through alongside the pain of the shame. You will see us examine those shame parts of her and the emotions still trapped in her body due to the trauma of experiencing narcissistic abuse. This one is definitely for you if you took a substance to numb out your pain and we lift that shame and celebrate the beauty of a nervous system trying to protect you.

Don’t ever be alone in your journey and make sure you come and join my private Facebook community, No Visible Bruises where you can connect with other survivors of narcissistic abuse, domestic abuse and coercive control:

https://www.facebook.com/groups/novisiblebruises.

Disclaimer: The views and opinions shared in this podcast are those of the individuals involved and are intended for informational and educational purposes only. They do not substitute professional or medical advice. If you’ve been affected by anything discussed in today’s episode, please consider reaching out to a qualified healthcare provider or mental health professional for support. You’re not alone, and help is always available.

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0:00.0	Welcome to No Visible Bruises, the podcast that shares real-life survivor stories of narcissistic abuse, domestic abuse and coercive control from a physiology first and nervous system perspective, because you can't think your way out of this. You need to feel to heal. I'm Caroline Strawson, a survivor myself and now a trauma expert and educator.
0:25.0	I am here to create change and understanding of the unseen abuse that we are not taught about
0:30.9	in schools and to heal from the inside out at a nervous system level.
0:35.9	Let's break the silence and change the narrative because we heal
0:40.5	together. If you are feeling a lot of shame because maybe you are addicted to a substance,
0:53.0	well, you need to listen to today's episode. I'm interviewing
0:56.6	Mandy Metas, who admits to many years ago being addicted to cocaine because of the abusive
1:03.2	relationships, and that's a plural over the years, but she felt a huge amount of shame and blame as to her addiction. So if you are addicted to a
1:14.1	substance or feel like you are overusing something to numb yourself out, you need to listen to
1:20.0	today's episode because we are lifting the shame on this because it's not your fault.
1:25.7	So we're here on our next episode of our Survivor Stories,
1:30.1	and I am joined by, actually, she's in my team, would you believe?
1:34.8	And I'm just so honoured to have Mandy Metas here today.
1:39.1	Massive welcome to Survivor Stories.
1:41.6	Thank you, Caroline.
1:42.6	Thank you for invite me to come on.
1:45.2	Now, honestly, I'm really excited to talk about, you know, your experiences, what you've been through. We were kind
1:50.6	of talking about things off camera before we started. First thing I want to say is if you're
1:55.2	watching this, you may notice that Mandy has her feet on some cushions. And often actually when I'm working with people on a
2:03.0	therapy basis, especially utilising things like somatic experiencing, you need to be comfortable
2:08.8	because if you're already uncomfortable in your body, it's quite hard to track sensations when
2:13.0	we're working with trauma. So Mandy has two cushions because she's 4 foot 11. I'm probably about six
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