I'm Dessa, the disembodied lady voice of deeply human, why we do the things we do.

We're about to set off on an episode of deja vu.

Why do we get it?

And how could it help you better understand the workings of your own mind?

I don't remember the first time, but I remember when they started happening really frequently.

I would be in math class or something, and suddenly everything would feel kind of off.

Like, I don't know if you know this feeling in your gut that something's just wrong.

I think I was probably 14, and I started getting them on maybe a daily basis by the time I was 16.

A daily basis?

Mm-hmm.

Can you describe, like if I met you at 14, what's your vibe?

Do you have like pink hair? Do you have like thick glasses? What's the vibe? Just picture Avril like, pink hair? Do you have, like, thick glasses? What's the vibe?

Just picture Aver Levine.

It's a little bit cringy, but, like, a bit of a skater girl, you know?

So that means, like, dark eyeliner?

Did your mom let you wear eyeliner?

She did, yeah.

Straightened hair, dark eyeliner, band t-shirt. I start to feel kind of

fearful and have this sense of dread and I start to feel really sick to my stomach and it starts

building like there's there's something that's going to take hold of me, and I really don't want it to,

so I try to focus on what's going on around me, but it starts invading my head more and more,

and then I get to this point where it feels like everything that's currently happening has

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