There was a real battle for my soul going on you know my entire childhood like I've I've always believed in God like I told you

I've never had the privilege of being an agnostic. I've always known that Jesus Christ is real and that you know

you know he is real and yet and yet I also knew this other stuff was real and from what I could tell

the Christian faith wasn't able to account for it so the whole time I'm growing up I have this

sort of tension and one day I was about 16 I'm working in this boutique and it was a rainy dark day

and this bizarre person that I had never seen before came walking into the boutique and he

was dressed from head to toe like he had like he had walked into a hot tub up again they said

what would you like and he said yes he was wearing like the red the tartan the tight tartan

pants he had the big black chunky boots he was the freakiest guy and I grew up in the Midwest so they're

like he he would have been invisible in LA but where I was from he stood out like a sore thumb

he was tall he was blonde he had long stringy blonde hair he was incredibly pale and he had

pale almost iridescent like almost like translucent pale blue eyes and he comes into this boutique

he immediately like locks eyes with me and my first thought is oh great you know it's just

you know he's a creep you know so I was standing at the register and it was one of those really

like old-fashioned registers where you had to you know before we you know when you had to count

that change and he's walking around this little boutique but I'm thinking there's no reason for

this man to be in here you know there's nothing in here for him this was a little kitshop he

walks around but he won't stop looking at me so I start like grabbing like we had a price tag gun

under the counter and I'm thinking okay if he comes over here and he tries to do something I'm

gonna have to get him with him to tag him with this price tag guy but he comes over and he's

going to buy this I don't even remember what it was it was maybe like a sticker or something and

he looks at me as I'm ringing him up and he says to my face he says my full name he says

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