What do you do when the man you looked up to as your spiritual hero is exposed as a fraud?

How do you recover from the disillusionment and betrayal?

And how do you find hope when your world is turned upside down?

Welcome to the Roy's Report, a podcast dedicated to reporting the truth and restoring the church.

I'm Julie Roy's.

And what you're about to hear is the second of 11 talks from this year's Restore Conference.

Speaking is Carson Whiteanauer, a former director with Ravi Zacharias International Ministries.

And as you'll hear, Ravi Zacharias had a huge impact on Carson when he was coming

of age and internalizing his faith. So in 2013, when Carson was hired by Ravi's ministry,

Carson thought he had found his dream job. But then, in 2020, the dream became a nightmare,

as more and more evidence showed that Ravi was not the man he purported to be.

He was not a model Christian leader and Sterling apologist, but a serial sexual predator who lied and manipulated to cover his tracks.

The revelations rocked Carson's world, and especially his faith.

And in this incredibly raw and vulnerable talk,

Carson doesn't sugarcoat anything. He tells of his journey from believing the exposés about

Ravi were just satanic attacks to realizing that his own leaders, people he looked up to

were lying to him. He talks about almost losing his faith and feeling like God had abandoned him.

But he also talks about hope and hanging on, even when life seems especially bleak.

If you've ever experienced betrayal trauma or church hurt, I think you're going to resonate

deeply with Carson's journey. And in just a minute, you'll hear that complete talk. But first,

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