This is Ashley Stone and you're listening to the Comeback Podcast.

Well, Hannah, I'm so excited to have you on the podcast. When you send me your email, I like immediately sent it to Lauren and I was just like, like this is such a good story I think that a lot of people

can probably relate to your story and what you went through and so, I'd love to just jump in and hear your story.

So I was raised in the church, you know, like a super active family and for the most part it was

really great in my childhood. I love

the young women program I love primary and everything and it was really good.

There were like some a few things that like I'll get to kind of later when I'm talking about my story of just things that thoughts and stuff that I had or things I went through that made a lot more sense later in my life. I served a mission. I went to be by you. I got married in the temple. And in

2020 I had my first baby. You know, 2020 was a really crazy year I think for everybody with COVID and there was just like a lot of things going on with politics and on top of that I also was freshly postpartum. I just kind of when my baby was about six months old I hit like a breaking point where I was just like I've got to talk to somebody I just felt so much turmoil in my mind and I was having a really hard time feeling confident in like any decision I made.

And so I went to a therapist and kind of talking about some of the things that were bothering me.

And then from there, it kind of progressively got worse and I eventually went to a treatment center.

It was an outpatient treatment center, so I'd go every day and then you know come home after I would

do therapy and stuff. And you said you were diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder?

Yeah so OCD, obsessiveessive Compulsive Disorder.

Once I went to treatment, I kind of got more specifics

of like what kind of OCD I have.

There's a lot of different subtypes.

And I suffer from a couple of them, but the one that I mainly want to focus on is

called scrublocity. It's basically obsessions surrounding religion and morality like moral and religious issues.

Some of the things when people have scrupleocity that they might suffer with,

and like me in particular is like pathological guilt, obsessing over sins and like wondering if you're

forgiven or feeling like you have to do everything completely perfect.

Just to make it clear, like this is not just an issue in the LDS Church,

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