I would like to set the scene here.

Hi, I'm Joey.

Welcome to the Appetines podcast.

It's currently 115.

PM right now, and stuff is hitting home with me and I would love to just sit and chat.

But first I want to welcome you guys to the Happy Times Podcast.

You see, when I was growing up I felt so sad to be me one of the saddest things that I remember about my childhood, I don't remember much because

of all the head injuries that I've had over the years and ADHD and everything and really clogs up my memory I'm not able to

remember a lot of things but the one thing that I do remember is probably one of the

saddest things.

When I was growing up in high school,

and my friends would tell me something sad that happened to them. I would always downplay myself and try to

one up them and try to make myself sound like something worse was in my life when I had a perfectly great life.

I had a life that I was I want to say happy to be living but I wasn't I was really depressed I was really sad it was really suicidal and

I would always tell my friends that I was doing a lot worse than what I was because it felt good for someone to finally care.

And I know there's a lot of people out there who say,

oh my God, they're seeking for attention and everything like that and

what it's calling people attention hoars you know?

And I agree with this statement, and I know that's probably not what you want me to say right

now, but it's true. You know, when I think about all the times, and this is specifically for myself,

when I think about all the times that I wanted attention, I was an attention seeker,'s because I needed attention it's because I was

begging for attention it's because I was begging for someone to be there for me

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