I am not going to lie. I'm a bit frightened. I'm a bit frightened because I just finished making

my fourth caffeinated beverage of the day. Okay, I woke up, had a coffee, mid-morning had a

matcha, then a little bit later had another one, and then now it's 4.45 p.m. and I'm having a third one.

So this is my fourth caffeinated beverage of the day. This is very

unusual for me. I usually stop drinking caffeine after my third caffeinated beverage.

Latest two or three p.m. It's later than usual. Even though I think I have a high caffeine

tolerance, I just, I don't want to have like some sort of panic attack.

I also don't want to be up all night.

So I'm a bit frightened, but I'm exhausted.

I'm exhausted right now.

And I, if I don't drink this, I'm going to take a nap.

And I'm really trying to stop napping because I've just noticed that it ultimately only holds me back in life, it tends to have

a net negative effect on my life. In the moment, taking a nap feels incredible. And a lot of times,

taking a nap is actually quite helpful because it ultimately gives me the energy to complete the

rest of my day. But then it's harder to fall asleep

at night. I end up falling asleep later and then I end up waking up later the next day. And then

that makes me depressed because I'm like, oh my God, no, is my day ruined? Should I wake up too late?

And then for the rest of the day, I'm kind of in a funk and I'm trying to get out of it. And, you know, a lot of times I can and it's fine,

but the day never feels as good as it does when I wake up early. And then, you know, the next night,

I try to go to bed earlier. But then because I went to bed later, the last night, it's harder to go to bed

earlier and because I woke up later. Do you see what I'm saying? So, like, I don't like napping. So I'm having another matcha. Macha number three,

caffeinated beverage number four. I am going to be a fucking menace for the next hour.

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