I recently found myself in a rough patch, okay?

I've been going through it a little bit.

The last month has been a real challenge.

Now, this is not unusual for me, right? I'm in my 20s. I'm a sensitive person.

Honestly, I'm going through a rough patch more often than I'm not. And that's okay. That's just who I am and the phase of life that I'm in.

It's all good. This is nothing out of the ordinary, right?

Wrong. My most recent rough patch has looked very different to my rough patches of the past.

This most recent struggle has been sort of unusual.

Instead of falling into a state of depression or anxiety or panic or burnout,

I'm just grumpy.

And I know what you're thinking, Emma, being grumpy is not that big of a deal, like we all get grumpy sometimes.

No, okay? What's so upsetting about it is that it's so out of character.

I'm normally an incredibly patient person.

But recently, I have a dangerously short fuse.

I'm normally a disciplined person. You know, I get my shit done and I don't complain about it,

but recently I have almost no willpower to do anything in any category of my life.

I'm normally a really gentle person, but recently I've been uncharacteristically harsh. Like, and okay, not with like random strangers.

I have maintained a sense of humanity

when it comes to people I don't really know,

but when it comes to people I'm close to, I have no patience. I'm harsh. I keep catching myself being harsh,

and I have to walk myself back and be like, oh my God, I'm so sorry, I don't know what that was.

Like, for the last few few years since I've become an

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