This is a Global Player Original podcast.

Welcome to this episode of Dirty Motherpucker.

I'm your host, Anna White House, the founder of Motherpucker.

And it is, who is it? Polly, Hazelwood. There she is. I am here. Say your name, say your name. Coming up,

we're going to be talking to the brilliant Shakira Akabusi. She's going to be talking about the pre,

the postnatal period, that moment where you feel like you're losing control, losing maybe your mind, losing yourself a bit, how to get back to yourself, how to find that resilience, that strength.

So I have been quite angry of late. You know this, right? Quite, quite angry.

Just like, and I said to Polly the other day, I said I'm just feeling the weight of the

world at the moment.

Like, it's all just a bit much.

I feel like I'm sort of sharing that weight a little bit with you.

Totally.

A little bit.

Hand in the air.

And I said to Polly the other day, I was quite, you know, I'd like to say self-reflective

of my mood of late. And I said, I feel like one of those wind-up toys, you know,

just wind it up and it's just hurtling towards a cliff edge.

And Polly just went too over-eagly.

Yeah, absolutely, that's how you are.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's exactly.

And I looked at her and I was like, sorry, you agree too much there she's like no no no not at all not all my boyfriend said at the moment

you're a little bit like um you know those radiators that's sort of whistling and you just ease the

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