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Hello, how are you?

I decided this week that we're going to do like a refresh on the

podcast which I'm really excited about because it's been a while since we have

really kind of like did a deep dive into like what the podcast is kind of I think now

that I'm back to functioning pretty much that 100% and have been for a little bit since

Carlo I want to just tighten it up a little bit I want to have more structure I want to do one episode a month that's a solo like this and I think I'm going to do different segments during this podcast which we could workshop now.

One of them being my ix of the week,

because I never give my fucking opinion about anything

because I'm I was like scared and I have

gracefully entered a new era of fuck it and I don't give a shit anymore about like offending

people it's just I mean because I don't say things that are offensive I

obviously don't but you know like I'm always

like so nervous and a tiptoe around things and I don't want to live that way anymore.

Although today I've had a raging amount of anxiety and I haven't had anxiety in a really long time. It's something that I very much conquered. My anxiety today was so physical. Like my stomach has been so upset, but not even like, oh my stomach's

upset and I don't know why, like literally the thoughts enter my head and then my stomach's upset and I don't know why, like literally the thoughts enter my head and then my stomach

hurts instantly. It's been like wild all day. It's 10 p.m. at night. This started at 6 this morning.

And like things keep compiling and this is a very, you know, I try to keep this like a happy place. I feel like a lot of us listen to podcasts as like a form of escapism

for sure so I always want to make sure that it stays like light although we do enter into some there are oftentimes we're

crying on here but I do want to start the podcast day by reminding everybody

that you get like such you get like a quarter of a

percentage of me which is odd because you get a lot of me, and I'm sure you at times are as sick of me as I am of myself.

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