I think that way every day in my life at night you know it's like okay after the kids go to

bed I'm gonna go down I'm gonna do something I need to do whether it's music or you know

something productive with my time and then they get to bed and I'm on the

couch and I'm like there's almost zero percent chance I'm going downstairs to do that thing.

Right. Yeah, yeah that mental energy is gone I just want to

chill yeah yeah it's hard not to want to chill I've been exhausted I've been setting up all this

printing stuff and doing all this stuff.

I feel like I am just spent.

Like this, last night I just fell asleep like for two hours.

Like last couple of nights I just kept falling asleep like on the couch or anything like this couldn't even

try to watch a movie or stay awake or anything it's just exhausted so why do you

keep going and doing stuff like that then I'm stupid I don't know I don't have a good grass on being

an adult if I'm honest. I don't think I have a good grass on it. Because all the things

that are attractive that are worth doing it's like this well I guess was get on with it and do it at thing is that

like that's what it feels like to do the good stuff but then you have all the stuff

and then you know you have that push and pull with wanting to chill and then doing things that you know is going to be a lot of work.

Oh yeah. That's why I want to just a get rich quick scheme to work.

I mean, really you understand it. I understand why it's bad. It's funny. I mean, I'll get into it in a minute about the printing, but the tech that was here is really cool guy.

It's a crazy story. We should have him on the pot sometime. I bet he would love it.

But we were just talking about the hard things. You just have to do hard things or else you really turn to mush in every way.

Oh yeah.

Right.

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