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basket we hope you enjoyed the podcast have a great day thanks dustin hi i'm sonya i'm an alcoholic

and it's great to see all of you here and i know that it's been a full day so if you're at the beach already

I completely understand and I may go there with you a couple times but hopefully I'll come back

for whoever might still be here so um when you know when I came into Alcoholics Anonymous

um I did not want to live anymore.

I didn't really want to die enough to take care of that either, but I definitely did not.

I had come to that point where I could not imagine living life with alcohol anymore,

and I certainly couldn't imagine it without alcohol anymore.

And I, A.A. works. I unfortunately have spent time not working

it. So what I'm going to share with you today is what has worked in A.A. for me and what didn't

work in A.A. for me. And really, first of all, start with, you know, what it was like

just to qualify. And I was restless, irritable, and discontent from the get-go. I remember my mom,

there was this little book that was on the bathtub in the bathroom at our house that

was all the pages were all warped on the book and I didn't know what it was but it had obviously

taken several dips in the bathtub and I knew that at night my mom used to put us to bed and I would hear the

bathwater running until the bathtub was full and she couldn't run the water anymore. And then I'd

hear her crying in there. And I didn't really know what was going on. I was self-absorbed and self-centered

at that age. So it wasn't. I was self-absorbed and self-centered, you know, at that age.

So it wasn't like I was feeling real pale and tragic about what was going on inside our house either.

But alcoholism was going on in our house.

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