Hey guys, it's Raven, fun fact, the Victorian era,

and the era known as the Wild West were happening at the same time.

And for some reason, that feels really wrong, but it's true.

On another note, today I am here to admit something that's actually pretty vulnerable and

kind of embarrassing and I feel like some of you guys are going

to judge me for it but it's the honest truth and I want to talk about it and I want to be real

about it and I feel like in a lot of ways there's going to be people who can relate and that's

what I always do these things for. So my confession, if you will,

is that I am jealous of other creators.

I am specifically dealing with a specific flavor of jealousy

when it comes to some specific elements of some specific creators.

Now, that in and of itself is probably not mind-blowing or shocking.

As much as I know it's not a good thing and as much as I try to avoid it, because I know that

comparison is the thief of joy.

And I know that I don't really have any real reason to be jealous or envious or comparing myself to other content creators

or, you know, my mutuals in this industry, whatever you want to call it. I know that it's not good.

I know I know I know. I know I know I know. At the end of the day, though, I'm still a human

being. It still happens. I would be lying if I tried to act like I never experienced any feelings

of jealousy, envy, you know, comparing myself, feeling bad about myself, wanting what they have,

wondering, how come they, they, they, you know, got this opportunity and I didn't

get it, whatever the case may be. It's the truth. It's the truth. I don't feel it all the time.

It's not something that like just, you know, takes over my whole life. I don't want to make it

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