Wounded

Buddhist Boot Camp Podcast

Timber Hawkeye

Spirituality, Buddhism, Awareness, Calm, Society & Culture, Meditation, Mindful, Buddhist, Philosophy, Awake, Minimalist, Innerpeace, Selfhelp, Spiritual, Education, Aware, Mindfulness, Self-improvement

4.8 • 907 Ratings

🗓️ 20 June 2023

⏱️ 13 minutes

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Summary

We are all wounded in ways we don't always understand or even know about. You sometimes can't even see the wound, but you still experience its symptoms: your reactions, aversions, opinions, preferences, and biases, are often indicators of trauma, so don't ignore, escape, deny, or try to numb the symptoms, pay attention to them; awareness is the first step to healing.

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0:17.0	Welcome to the Buddhist Boot Camp Podcast. Our intention is to awaken, enlighten, enrich, and inspire a simple and uncomplicated life. Discover the benefits of mindful living with your host, Timber Hawkeye.
0:37.0	Buried deep under many layers of shame, embarrassment, disgust and anger, there was a repressed experience from my past that only recently resurfaced. I was not raised by alcoholic parents, and of all the things to which anyone can be addicted,
0:42.0	alcohol was never my poison of choice.
0:44.7	I've been working with people in recovery for over a decade, so on the one hand I am understanding
0:50.1	patient, loving, and gentle with anyone regardless of their challenges in life.
0:54.6	But on the other hand, I have avoided being around alcohol the way someone who is terrified
0:59.2	of drowning stays far from bodies of water.
1:02.1	Even after years of therapy and meditation, I couldn't figure out the
1:06.0	logic behind my strong aversion and rigidity around drinking. That is until a few weeks ago
1:11.5	when a buried memory was triggered, and now I finally understand.
1:16.0	Whenever I'm on a book tour like the one I recently finished, I stay with different host families in each city instead of paying for hotels, because that money can go towards donating books to prisons, schools, rehab centers, support groups, and so on.
1:30.0	Most people have a guest bedroom, a couch, or an air mattress for me in the living room, with a setup each night that ranges anywhere from the slightly uncomfortable all the way to plush luxury.
1:41.0	At one of my stops on this last tour however I found myself in a
1:45.2	situation that set off warning alarms at my body as if it was under attack.
1:49.4	I immediately contacted my best friend and I said, I don't think I can stay here.
1:55.1	Sleeping on a bathroom floor that reeks of urine would be more appealing to me than staying
2:00.2	where I am right now.
2:01.7	And that got me thinking, when did I ever sleep on a bathroom floor that reeked of urine?
2:06.8	Surprisingly, that's the moment a repressed memory broke through the layers of shame, embarrassment, disgust, and anger, and I physically felt myself
2:15.5	reliving an incident that I buried years ago.
2:19.2	From the time I was 20 until my early 30s, my good friend Colin stood by my side through everything,
2:25.8	whether I was working at coffee shops or law firms, when I left the corporate world and moved to
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