Welcome back to another episode of Arnold's Pump Club.

The day is September 11th, and I want to share something a little different.

We ask Go Ruck founder Jason McCarthy,

who is a former Green Berets Special Forces

Sergeant to share what he learned from his experiences, serving his country, and

going to war. Here is what he shared with us. It's likely not what you expect

it to be. I have a deep-seated conflict with 9-11 that will never die. I was 22 a freshly minted college kid with no real

purpose in life on that perfect September morning when the towers fell. I watched

it on TV and that was close enough. My desire for revenge was born and absolute.

This led me to the Army recruiting station. I guess I wanted to serve my country but that was

secondary to my desire for revenge. There are many ways to serve your country but I

felt in the marrow of my bones that my job was to

answer the call of war as so many had done before me. I became completely convinced

that if I didn't join,

I would regret it for the rest of my life.

This fear of regret is the emotion

that ultimately overpowered my fear of dying in a faraway land.

As I went through Special Forces training in the Pine Forest of North Carolina

under men who had been in the invasion of Afghanistan.

I contemplated a lot about life and death,

but did this as little as possible.

I shielded myself from any feelings of weakness by telling myself as we all had to that we were

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