In the last episode, we discussed how sometimes I can be a little bit of a hater.

Okay?

And I say a little bit of a hater, because unlike most haters, I don't seem like a hater.

I don't spread hatred.

I don't put people down.

In fact, I tend to do the complete opposite.

I'm very supportive and kind, in non-judgmental, and loving.

To the naked eye, I'm a bundle of love.

But in private, I can be a little bit of a hater.

Okay.

And I've always sort of been that way.

Like, I've always found weirdly a sense of joy in novelty

in hating on things. I've always sort of loved gossip. Like, there's just something about me

that enjoys hatred. It kind of reminds me of my relationship to nicotine. For whatever reason,

I just like nicotine. Some people I know couldn't care less about it. They smoke a vape,

you know, smoke a cigarette, whatever, and they just never get hooked and they just never

like it. And nicotine never works for them. And they just never get addicted. they just never like it and nicotine never works for them and they just never get addicted and it just never happens. I'm the opposite.

For whatever reason, I've always loved it. Okay. Does it ultimately impact me negatively?

Yes, because having nicotine in my system makes me anxious and paranoid and it makes me disassociate.

It has a bunch of negative effects.

But in the short term, I love it.

I absolutely love it.

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