David, fuck you.

There was nothing neutral about what happened to me.

Yeah.

Like, yes, justice has to happen.

So you're just saying I should work on my own fucking reactions all the time while these people get away with murder?

Fuck you.

Yeah, that's what, that's the only way to get free.

35 years old, I was at the height of my powers.

I was making lots of money and in demand

as an actor.

But that was really the beginning of the end of my acting career.

But I think they thought I was going a little bit crazy.

And of course I wondered, maybe I am.

Maybe they're right.

I was, yeah, I lost control. Like, is essentially what happened,

which I think is what you have to do in order to change. And, you know, this is why people say

you can only change once you hit rock bottom. I don't know if I hit exactly a rock bottom,

but I definitely lost control of my life. The belief is if I show the world this part of me,

if they really see who I am,

if they really see how much rage I have,

or how much, you know, weird, sexual fantasies,

whatever we feel shame about,

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