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You're back.

I'm back.

It's crazy.

You left me here for quite some time. Yeah, that was the longest. I've been away from you in a long time. You know, it, it's sometimes it's like, good. Yeah, sometimes it's good. I know. I was very aware. I did really miss you. There were a couple nights there where I was drowning. Really? Like, like,

like, wow. But I was so, I like knew this was your time. And so I was so happy for you to get out. And like, so I was trying to have like the best possible attitude about it. Was there like a story arc of how you felt while I was gone? Like you

were like you felt free for like 24 hours and you're like oh my gosh, it's so fun. It's like parents,

my parents are gone. Yeah. And then it was probably like, oh, like I miss him. And then it was like,

oh, this is really hard. And then it was like, I'm angry and resentful. And then it maybe like came back up. I don't think I was ever angry or resentful that you were gone. Did you feel that?

I don't think I ever got that. No. I mean, towards the end, it was about something else, but it wasn't. I don't think it was about me being gone.

No, no. Because I really like getting that like one-on-one time with our kids.

The thing is, is when you're watching like, you're having three, you don't even really get

quality time because I was so invested in Summit like the whole time because Summit was crying

and needed to be fed. And so I couldn't even really like pay attention to the other two.

So it's just different.

Like watching Stella and Stratton when before Summit, it was fun because I could be like, and you know, Stella was old enough to like if something went wrong, she could come and tell me.

Yeah.

But now it's like, it's different.

Have you told anyone that were a family of five?

No, I. I said it for the first time and I was like, dang.

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