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I was always overprotective, but now I feel like I don't let anybody come to my house

period because that was considered my house. And I feel like something like that

shouldn't happen in your home. So I'm super overprotective now. Like I don't

let my son go outside by himself even though I mean he's not old enough, but I

feel I never let him out of my sight. Neither one of them. It's just so hard. Like I've

done polygraphs, I've done volunteer searches, we've done everything hand it. Like it

now, where at a point we're like, what do you do? How do you keep searching? Whoever

is behind this, whoever has any kind of knowledge, any whereabouts, any kind of

info, whether it be the biggest or smallest, I just pray and I hope and I remain

hopeful and faithful that someone will come do the right thing because I mean

Joshua doesn't belong wherever he is. Wherever it is he is at, he doesn't belong

there. He has a family that loves him and cares about him and we still celebrate

birthdays and every holidays and he has a positive whole of presence and my kids

don't know him, but they talk about him like they met him. Like it's so unfair, I

just want someone to do the right thing. I mean they can do it anonymously.

You could tell she was in shock in the pictures and some of the new things. She just kind

of had this glaze over her, but a lot of people handled that differently. I was in shock

for weeks before I even showed any emotion and then it was kind of like, you know,

pure terror because I was like, oh my God, what is really going on here? When it really

hit me and I thought, okay, nothing's coming up, you know, we're not finding him. The

neighbors aren't bringing him back home. They haven't found anything and then they thought

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