two, one, go.

I'm kind of coming out of this season where for three or four months or so, I was really

struggling with fatigue, just physically kind of feeling exhausted and, you know, the kind of emotional swings that come with that.

I really felt like for several months that I had enough energy to get to work, do my work, but when I got done with the day, that was just it.

And so I go see my doctor and do all the blood work, right, like get all the panels and they put me on vitamins other things you know anywhere there's

an issue they try to resolve and it took a couple weeks three or four weeks but all of a sudden

my energy returned and felt like I had some vitality and life and what I found really quickly

was all of a sudden I had motivation again and motivation to get up motivation to work work, motivation to accomplish task. And this has

happened several times in my adult life where I've swung from this place of fatigue to this place

of hypermotivation. And what happens is for me is productivity becomes really addictive.

And so you know the feeling of when you you have a list of things to do.

And when you get the list done, all of a sudden you have this rush of like kind of adrenaline,

of feeling accomplished, feeling like you're worth something, like you added some kind of value

to the world. And so I'm living in this place, to be honest, where I'm really wrestling with the, like,

addiction of productivity.

Like, I'm really enjoying getting things done and I'm running and I'm running hard and fast.

And that's all really good in balance.

But the problem with, for me, when I swing to this place of being super productive all the time,

is that I lose my devotion. I lose my

ability to sit still and to sit before God and to ponder. I think the strength of any

Bible teaching is the ability to really meditate upon the Word of God, to sit before it

and ask questions. Like,

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