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🗓️ 5 March 2025
⏱️ 58 minutes
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0:00.0 | Hey, Desirvin listeners. I thought I would answer your emails, the emails from patrons and YouTube members, annual long-term patron O, she wrote in and said, when I was 12 or 13 years old, I developed a crush on my friend's older brother who was 20. When I was 12 or 13, I developed a crush on my friend's older brother who was 20. |
0:25.6 | He loved playing video games and watching anime, and we spent a lot of time together. |
0:31.6 | My memory of him is that he was very immature, but handsome, well-mannered, and calm. As for me, I always felt |
0:40.7 | older than my age, so I made it clear that I liked him. We started secret, by the way, trigger |
0:47.7 | warning on, well, I think the, it's clear. I think what the trigger warning is for. |
0:56.7 | We started secretly meeting for walks. We started secretly meeting for walks. And over time, |
1:04.1 | we kissed and expressed our feelings for each other. When his mother found out, she told us |
1:10.8 | that it was terribly wrong, it was unacceptable, |
1:15.0 | and that he could be accused of being a pedophile because of it. We immediately stopped |
1:21.4 | dating and we never spoke to each other again. I felt like things had gotten out of hand, |
1:28.8 | but he never crossed the line of my consent, nor did he ever pressure me into anything. He moved to another country, |
1:36.0 | and as far as I know, he never had a girlfriend. I still wonder if he could have been a pedophile, |
1:42.1 | or if he was just an immature guy in love. I still don't know to |
1:49.7 | this day, which it was. As for me, I definitely didn't want to take the relationship any further than |
1:56.2 | it had gone. I had a romantic vision that wasn't based in reality. |
2:02.2 | The whole situation quickly became overwhelming for me, and I felt like a hostage to it. |
2:08.2 | I'm glad his mother put a stop to it. |
2:10.4 | However, I must say that my behavior was strongly influenced by the manga's and anime I was reading, where relationships with older boys were |
2:20.4 | often common and romanticized. What do you think of this situation? End of email. Yeah, okay, |
2:28.5 | where to begin? There's a lot to unpack. I'm not going to be able to, um, recently I made an episode in which I |
2:37.5 | answered emails and I felt like I was yammering too much. So I'm going to try not to do that |
2:44.3 | this time. So I can get to more emails primarily. But in brief, if we look at the age difference, if we highlight that, we hear |
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