One of the things I knew that my desire to get strong and my desire to have power to be really really just I was obsessed with muscle even as a little kid because I knew one day I might have to kill my father.

Welcome to the School of Greatness. My name is Louis Howe's former pro athlete turn lifestyle entrepreneur and each week we bring you an inspiring person or message to help you discover how to unlock your inner

greatness. Thanks for spending some time with me today. Now let the class begin.

Before the episode starts I want to give a quick trigger warning that we do discuss different forms of sexual abuse and healing from those experiences.

Your book is called Tufts, your journey to true power and you are the epitome of the tough strong bodybuilder football guy for a long time and you portrayed this image in

movies, TV and all these different things. Why do you feel like you had that anger inside of you and when did you realize that you needed to let it go?

Well, wow that's a great great question man you know for me you know my world was designed around competition.

Growing up in Flint, Michigan it was in the middle when the auto industry imploded in all was around 10 years old and then the crack of a

pandemic happened at the same time. So you're talking about a double whammy on a city and so it was very violent you know lots of crime lots of drugs lots of

gangs lots of powerlessness is what I like to call it because I people felt power less especially me.

Because you couldn't do anything about it you know one thing that people didn't know or forgot is around that time in the city there

were be smokestacks around the city and what they were doing were burning foreign cars.

And I remember just seeing you walked through school and you go across a parking lot in this factory and they'd be burning a car and

you know you're going to have a refugee and throw in rocks at it and you know you're going to add them down you know Toyota's up in here you know because it was born and it just hit me about how you

know the problem was the city was very resistant to change. But change is inevitable and this is what I was going through and but it was also about competition.

So I was like well okay it's got to be me versus this dope man it's got to be me versus this gang initiation that they're trying to bring me into it's got to be me versus you know the grown men in my neighborhood

in my area that were always challenging me as a young man so you have to come up and it made me very mad really.

I'm not calling father on top of all that big Terry with the big Terry you know I was a little Terry he was big Terry and you know one of my earliest memories is him knocking my mother out.

And I was like God it man you run the world right now until I do.

How am I going to tell you how are you then?

I was bought but I have to tell you I wanted to think I knew that my my desire to get strong and my desire to have power to be really really just I was I was obsessed with muscle even as a little kid because I knew one day I might have to kill him

Oh my gosh he was that dude he was just he was unending never bending just constant intimidation you know what I mean like fear intimidation.

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