Hi friends, so I'm back from the mountains and if you've been following me on social media you understand what I mean

I literally ran away to the mountains a couple days ago to go isolate myself in the middle of nowhere where nobody could find me and nobody can reach me

I literally like snapped mentally from like everything that was going on and just booked an Airbnb on my phone and took off

Got in a car and just took off of the mountain

But for this episode I'm going to share you one of the realizations that struck me when I was on top of the mountain

That's why I have papers here usually I write my notes on my computer to like hit on but these are the papers that I journaled

Like I have like a stack of pages like all I did for like two days up in the mountains

Which is journal sit with myself and rework a lot of mindsets

So we're just going to go off the cuff but a huge huge thing I was not aware of

Was my expectations around things and this is gonna be a deep episode like I'm gonna talk about the subconscious

And like this is not gonna be a base level thing like we're gonna have to like get up in that bitch

And I'm gonna teach you like how I get into my mind and pull out the awareness that helps me this will be flipped my life

So for the past like two weeks

I've been in a very very like bad mindset like I've been pissed off irritable

I've not been enjoying anything I have not been feeling any excitement in life

Everything felt like a chore and this is something I've been kind of like hitting and then having to hit it from a different angle

If you've been listening for the past like ten episodes like you've heard me talk about this but when things come up

And you go through it and you fix it for a minute and then it comes back up you have to hit it from a different angle

So I finally found how to cure this for myself

But I'm gonna walk you through like the mindset I was in like I was very very irritable like pissed off at everything

Like daily things like little inconveniences would make me so angry

And I always talk about emotions or messengers and I finally listen to them when I was on the top of the mountain

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